i caught up with yoong tian after lecture last week, and i had the chance to talk to her about some stuff that i had been thinking about for some time. actually, it felt really strange hearing myself say the things i did, it just felt so weird hearing it out loud. and hearing it out loud also kinda made what was a mere thought a reality, as though saying it gave it power to materialise, and i had no choice but to admit to it being true. and it hurt, it really did, having to admit to such a painful truth. but it hurt in a cathartic way, and i knew that by seeing it as a reality, i could finally face up to it and deal with it head on. i could see the enemy, the demons that had been tormenting me mentally, and finally i knew what it was that i was fighting.
and man, was it a fuckin' purging experience.
ps: my apologies to the people i'd been swearing to. i just had a rough week, and emotional release was what i needed. haha i was swearing so hard that everytime i used a certain hokkien vulgarity, ben stopped talking, and i could feel the room turn icy cold...you could pluck the icicles off of his nose...haha...
all identities shall remain secret except for huazhen's.
last week i ran into the girl i had a major crush on when i was in sec 4. (yes, keep that golden little nugget so that you can blackmail me with it on the day when i am rich and famous, and you, are homeless and have just sold off your wife and are in need of another dollar for a coffee.) anyway, so huazhen the stupid girl coerced me into stalking her, but we gave up after following her 5 metres to the bus stop. then she had a sudden spark of intelligence and decided, "but she not even a guy!" me: "well, at least she likes girls..." where i come from, even the guys don't like girls.
well this week, while i was grousing about the 800-page astromony textbook i had to lug around, huazhen attempted to plant the seeds of motivation in me by telling me that i ought to memorise those inter-galactic facts so that i can use them to "impress my future boy or girlfriend".
last year, when i heard about our resident lit couple who "met in Tragedy (lecture)", i used to joke and say, "well, i hope i find a guy in ROMANTICISM...ah-hah-hah-hah...". so i secretly kept my fingers crossed when i went for my 1st Romanticism lecture last monday and, well, when i said i hoped to find a guy in Romanticism, i didn't think i'd have to take my own words literally... i sure did get the chance to find a guy there alright...with the aid of a super high-power telescope. because, out of a class of 60, i counted a grand total of...8 guys. yes. so yeah, i guess if you have a thing for playing "where's wally" with males in lecture theatres, then english literature is the thing for you.
sigh...i miss seeing jason every monday afternoon at film lec...i miss val wee's monday afternoon film lecs...
this really cute ns guy was checking me out yesterday.
qn: what is wrong with the above sentence? ans: subject-verb agreement
let us examine clause 1. firstly, there is no such thing as an ns men who's cute. i've known enough of those to draw the conclusion that there is no such thing as a "cute" ns person. and secondly, i believe all girls will agree with me on the point that if you are a guy living in singapore, you are NOT cute. the possibility of you being "cute" is immediately and naturally reduced to zero. therefore, there is no such thing as a CUTE. NS. GUY. moving on to clause 2. unless preceeded by a negation, the phrase "checking me out" can NEVER follow the word "guy".
and thus, since the subject ("cute ns guy") and verb ("checking me out") cannot agree, the above sentence cannot exist.
let's practice on another example: this really hot indian guy signed up for lion dance last week.
haha i'm in the middle of matric fair now, blogging off hong wei's lap top...how cool is that?? and haha hong wei's got BoA splashed all over his com man haha...he's got this massive BoA screensaver and i expect she's his backdrop too, if he hadn't changed it to a lion dance ad for the purpose of the fair...haha...
my hands are trembling now from playing drums at the performance a while ago...woo...
ok actually, i have nothing worthwhile to say so i'm just gonna go now...
i was a quite offended by what shuyan said to me some time ago. (shuyan, you know i love you dear, but i just couldn't get past what you said, and i didn't want to wage an all-out religious war in the middle of borders...)
the conversation went like this: shu: do you read the bible? me: err, no... : shu: i realise catholics are not as religious. me: ?!
well, i was offended because firstly, just because I don't read the bible doesn't mean that the rest of the community doesn't read the bible, although i must admit that to a certain extent, we are not as well-versed (pun intnded) in bible quotes as our christian counterparts.
and secondly, it is very wrong and unfair to measure "religiosity" with knowledge of the bible as a benchmark. like i told her, as much as it is after all the same religion, they differentiate because of differences in beliefs, practices and especially, culture. just as i cannot say that a christian pastor is 'less religious' than a catholic priest because a pastor is allowed to marry and have children, so you cannot say catholics are less true to the faith because we don't study the bible as much or in the same way you do. similarly, i can't say that taoists are 'less religious' than buddhists because they don't practice meditation, or that buddhists are 'less religious' than taoists because they don't burn offerings.
thus, you can't measure a person's devotion to his/her religion based on how she(for simplification's sake) practises it, it is perhaps more important what she is thinking or feeling as she carries out her practices. religiosity, as the word suggests it, implies a state of mind that can neither be measured with physical counting techniques nor determined by an external second (or third--technicalities, technicalities...) party. like how you can't measure the degree of love with the number of 'i love you's said.
and so, please stop saying that "catholics are less religious" (than what? animists??) just because we do not read the bible. please go find something else against us instead.
