Gone Fishin'

yup, i'm'a openin' up an old can'a worms.

i caught up with yoong tian after lecture last week, and i had the chance to talk to her about some stuff that i had been thinking about for some time.
actually, it felt really strange hearing myself say the things i did, it just felt so weird hearing it out loud. and hearing it out loud also kinda made what was a mere thought a reality, as though saying it gave it power to materialise, and i had no choice but to admit to it being true.
and it hurt, it really did, having to admit to such a painful truth.
but it hurt in a cathartic way, and i knew that by seeing it as a reality, i could finally face up to it and deal with it head on. i could see the enemy, the demons that had been tormenting me mentally, and finally i knew what it was that i was fighting.

and man, was it a fuckin' purging experience.

ps: my apologies to the people i'd been swearing to. i just had a rough week, and emotional release was what i needed. haha i was swearing so hard that everytime i used a certain hokkien vulgarity, ben stopped talking, and i could feel the room turn icy cold...you could pluck the icicles off of his nose...haha...