(Un)Sound Check

ok i really don't know if i should be doing this.
and i am pretty sure i will regret saying this even as i am writing it.
but i deserve my moment. i demand to be allowed my moment.
and i don't give a damn who the hell is reading this because this is private and you sure as hell better keep it that way.

how many times, i repeat, how many times does it take before i am allowed to be fed up with the fact that every single guy i take a liking to is either
a) not interested
b)interested in another girl or
c) related to me?
how many times, huh, how many freaking times?

ok i'm done. back to reality.